If only YOU could see through my eyes...

Saying hello to my homie out there who clicked into this blog and kindly reading this... If you would question me what have had happen to me for the past few months for being absent and missing in action, I will kindly feed you about it as you read along it. 

I’ve been struggling with myself when I was admitted into hospital…. While you are wondering why couldn’t you allocate me is because things in life happen to strike you down for some reason. There are too many questions to sort it out at once, so let me just fast forward this. Just when you thought you stumbled upon a gem stone who you think you can wake up next to and then... It’s too good to be true (sometimes)… That ain’t happening unfortunately. Just like the old adage, it is true that when you care too much, you will only end up hurting yourself to the core. Couldn’t agree more…

 But listen up, there is no people to be blamed. Every person revolves around you is going to hurt you at some point of time… But it’s up to you to decide what is important … The PAIN… OR… THE REASON?  The PAIN brought me to medical attention, but I have better a REASON to get out from the “sleep mode” after re-gaining my consciousness. 

Here I am, in a familiar place feeling something I've felt before, wondering why it's still here, why didn't I deal with it more careful before. But I'm glad I have a second chance at it ... and I know there will be no third chance. I also know that if it comes up again, I'll recognize it and deal with it more readily. This is just another lesson to be learn.

You only live once. You gotta learn to accept and forgive and stop dwelling with the past. I might take detours that divert me from the original route. I might stumble along the way. But I know, I will always find my feet and I will always find my way forward.

I am living now, and I know I am not alone in this.

I have once shattered someone’s heart, and I know how it feels to be in that position now. I am so sorry for what I’ve done in the past and I know nothing can be done to revert back the time. What I’ve learn is to have unwavering faith in yourself, for good and bad in life. Believing that every experience you gained is uniquely empowering. 

Believe me, if I were given a chance to re-do this whole chapter, I will not let this happen again.

Cheers to the homie,  I am alive and breathing...